Sundries

Something Unexpected

by Alexis Robinson


People never see beyond this face
There are terrible memories I could never erase
They never look beyond the screams and shouts
That's why their opinions of me are nothing but doubts

There is something beyond these pretty hazel eyes
I'm tired of being surrounded by lies
Can't you hear my humble cry?
Am I ever going to anything better than what surrounded by?

When I tell you my story, you won't think that's the way I was raised
You probably think I'm just an innocent girl who gets good grades
But you're wrong so now you have the chance to hear my voice
Making it in life? I have no choice

Someday I will graduate from college
I'm already street smart so why not add some book knowledge
I will prove everyone wrong about their perspective of me
Besides, I must be the change I want to see



I'm Sorry

by Alexis Robinson

I'm sorry I don't have a 4.0 GPA, I'm happy with my 3.5
I'm sorry my life isn't perfect, I'm just glad to be alive
I'm sorry I'm not drop dead gorgeous from my head to my toes
But I'm not in the acting industry, therefore I don't put on shows

I'm sorry I don't come from a wealthy family, not everything is just placed in my hand
I'm sorry I have a unique personality not many people understand
I'm sorry everyone thinks I'm supposed to do what they say
What they fail to realize is that God is the only person that I truly obey

I'm sorry I can't always run to mommy and daddy to make everything ok
All I have is my pride and faith to help me along the way
I'm sorry I may say things to people that may seem incoherent
I'm sorry that everyone thinks that they're my parents

I'm sorry that I'm the type of person that can easily speak their mind
And a person like me is truly hard to find
I'm sorry that not many people like me and think I'm stuck up
But unless you've taken the time to get to know me, then please shut up

I'm sorry that some people may refuse to accept what my future plans are to be
But now I refuse to keep apologizing for simply being me
I'm done pouring my heart out, I am now wiping my tears
I'm done being sorry because I've been sorry for sixteen years



Internal Struggle

by Alexis Robinson

I was always taught to swallow my tears
And maybe somehow I can ignore my fears
But that habit starting to get old
So maybe its time to grow up and learn to be bold

I have a rough exterior trying to protect what's within
And maybe someday this pain will come to an end
If you think I got it easy, think again
Put yourself in my position and war will begin

I wake up every morning waiting for it to be night
Waiting to see if I have to put up another fight
So I keep swallowing that pill that they call pride
And I keep washing my pain away like a bottle of Tide

I want to live life and try to maintain hope
Because I don't want to end up no drug addict relying on dope
I'm going to live life hoping that I'll get a sneak peek
And maybe, just maybe, I'll let a single tear fall down my cheek